Twothousandtwelve
May 29th, 2012 § Leave a Comment
I haven’t really greet 2012 with a good greetings. I don’t think I wanna do it anyway.
By the way, it is almost half year of 2012. Time do flies, especially when you work on weekends too. What a life! Hahaha. But then, I rather work than sleeping like a pig at home. Seriously, work is the life as for now.
I’m sad that for the first time in my life, I had to leave someone. Leaving Amate was never part of my plan. I do love him, until this date. Just that with he still in school and I already started working, life is just different between us. I have to think far ahead, beyond only Bf and Gf relationship. After further discussion and so many uncounted crying sessions, I finally let him go. The most hardest decision I’ve ever made, leaving a very good guy for a better one.
Speaking of better one, my new man, Mohamad Azhari Mohamad Hosni. 24 years old. 16 April 1988. Segamat, Johor. My production technician.
That’s all for now
Updating soon.
Ciao bella 
Closure of 2011
December 18th, 2011 § 1 Comment
Pejam celik pejam celik…we already at the end of 2011. Time flies, really.
2011 is a heck of a year for me. Relationship, Studies, Works, Friendship. Every little things in my life has been on the verge, except my Family and the Royal.
It’s like a fairy tale that i’ve been in love again, because i thought i never will. My plan was to have an arrange marriage. Being in love is one thing, being in love with non malaysian guy is one thing, being in love with african guy is a big thing. Hahahaha. So far, the love ride has been ups and downs. But i have to say, Amate is one heck of a guy. He might be less romantic, less understanding and too secretive, but his patience, consideration and tolerance towards me has been superb. I don’t know where this relationship will heads to after this. I wish i know. But, as long as we stay true to each other, this relationship deserves to have a good future no?
I finally completed my 5 years of tertiary education! Uni time was a good time for me. I diversified in a lot of things, mostly the bad things, which i am not really proud off. However, throughout all that experiences, i finally learnt to know myself more, be more wiser, more appreciative and some other good stuff about me that i never knew i have. My slightest regret during uni was that i didn’t perform all out for my 3 last semesters. That’s the time i got involved with romantic stuffs, that’s the time i know people talked about me behind my back. Call me naive but i never thought people may or will talk bad about me behind my back since i was nice to everyone that i know. Those 3 semesters were the time where i don’t give a fuck about what people may think about me too. I never thought i can be that cold hearted. With all those life problem, coupled with my struggle of completing Design Project and FYP, i graduated with CWA of 69.94. Just 0.06 to get 70. But then again, those were the past that i can’t repeat and i regretted very well.
Works! Very tiring! But very interesting. I have been working for 3 months. I wish i can say more about my works but i can’t. Company Confidential. By this time, i don’t really mind whether i got a chance to go Atlanta or not because there is so many things i have to cover on 2-4-1 process, yet boss has already made his decision to put me on Cobalt process. Thus, Atlanta is still on its way but i just don’t want to put too much hope. Hehehehe. For a very young engineer, works is like a battlefield. You must get your work right if you don’t want people to question your decision or findings or works. I’ve been working on 2 major problems that we encounter on the production line now. I have to say, going on a meeting and sitting next to your boss and run the show where all those big bosses will questions you is kinda scary, at least to me. Work has not give me any trouble yet. Hopefully it remains that way until i got my own car next year. Finger crossed!
I lost 2 friends over things that start off as misunderstanding. I am not gonna say more about this. Just that, i feel sad until now on what happen, i really do. But i don’t think i can make it work anymore, the friendship. So yeah. Thank God i don’t really see them much in office since we’re in different department. I have no intention to be their friends again, for now.
There you have it. My 2011 conclusion. I hope 2012 will bring better things for me. I believe God has plan my path of life and i am eager to know what has He stored for me next year. I hope i am able to go through all the challenges and life my life to the fullest, as long as God want me to.
Adios 2011, Ahlan Wahsahlan 2012. I’ll be waiting
Its been awhile.
October 28th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Its been 2 months since my last post. I guess my promise of updating this blog has just remain as promise. Hehehe.
To start of this update, i will just blab about my boring yet interesting life in Gelang Patah. Yes people, i’m the citizen of small town called Gelang Patah, Johor. Current address, Pangsapuri Paya Mengkuang. Pretty nice place to live the life. Hope all is well.
5th of November mark my 2nd month of working life as an engineer. Honestly, i love the job. I do, because it is very interesting. You know alot of new things everyday. Just that i hate the paper work. I just finished validating one of the machine. Took me a week to complete the whole process. Now, the report writing. But,, i have to say, whatever knowledge i gained from uni, it is very helpful here. Just that i need to analyse more, think more, understand more. The not fun part is that you can’t say you don’t know. Work makes you become more responsible towards what you do, especially when your work might interrupt other people’s work.
Life is pretty stable now, i guess. Everything is on the good side.
There’s nothing to talk about because my life here is not as happening as Miri but i kinda like it. Work worn me out. All i want to do when i got back home is just rest and sleep. Its very different than Miri life. Adjusting the happening life to more laid back is abit hard but i will get used to it later.
That’s all from me, now. Will update soon, with more happening things.
p/s: I can’t wait for KK tomorrow!
with love,
Rahilah
Beyond the Ambition
August 31st, 2011 § 1 Comment
Good Day people! Wishing you guys Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim friends and Happy 54th Independence Day (to Malaysian).
Yesterday was the first day of raya. What i did was eat and eat and eat and sleep. Such a nice things to do no? Well, that’s how my raya goes for the past 7 years since my grandparents passed away. Minus 3 years of my fun and excitement raya in Miri, most of my raya celebration will end up watching tv with my nucleus family and continuously eating.
Back to the title.
I just woke up few hours before writing this post. I haven’t really thought about what i want to say. So, please bare with me, ok people
I read through this list.
The 25 Most Powerful Women of the Past Century.
I remembered i started to plan what i wanna achieve and what i wanna be at the age of eleven, when i was given a book by my mom, who used to work at my primary school bookshop. I can’t really recall the title of the book, but it’s about how to study well and get 5A’s for UPSR. I recalled the memories when i was the only person in my school to get 5A’s for my mid term exam, yet i was still in Standard 5 that time. The book taught me 1 thing that i still used until today.
‘Write down your goal, clearly, in the place where you can see everyday, so it keeps reminding you whatever things that you do right now will have an impact in achieving your goal’.
I remembered there’s a section in that book, asking me about what’s my goal in UPSR, where i wanna go after that, what’s my 5 years plan and what i want to be in the future. I’m a kind of person who believe in myself when i want to believe in myself. I’m very self-motivated. No one can put me down unless i let that person to do that. So, by doing everything that i know i’m good at, my objective at that time was to get 5A’s and going to MRSM. That was my biggest dream. And yes, indeed, i got my 5A’s but, unexpectedly, with all my good co-curriculum and endorsements by all the teachers who knows me, i was deny my right as a school selected student to pursue my education in a good boarding school because my dad was not the Head of my school Parents Teachers Association (PTA @ PIBG).
I was very down that time, when my mom came back from school and told me about it. I told myself that i already work hard enough, but yet, i didn’t get what i supposed to get. That was my first encounter of the cruel world. How i beg it to be differ because i already have my plans. At that time, i want everything to follow what i planned it to be. Nevertheless, i went to my ordinary secondary school because i was sad of not getting enroll to boarding school, plus the fact that my dad thought i was a baby that time. Why shouldn’t him, my school shoes was cleaned by a washing machine. Both my parents think that i can’t be in boarding school with my laziness attitude. I have to say, today, i think they’ve made a wise decision.
Back to my plain ordinary secondary school. Over here, i was thought that true hard work and passion will get you to anywhere that you want. 65% of the student in that school are Chinese. That’s how i got interested in learning Mandarin. They always has this hard working attitude, regardless anything. With only 15 of us Malay student in my class when i was in Form 5, we were the lazy crew, not all la, but i’m very sure of myself, together with the puppy love season at that time. I was trying hard to get the 10A1 but i only achieved 7A1, 1A2 and 2B3.
I always wanted to do law when i was a kid. I have no idea why. None of my relatives that i’ve known that time has anything to do with lawyer or law firm. I wanted to go to University Malaya to read Law. I still keep that ambition until i was in Form 4, when i was introduced with Sciences subjects, and my favourite of all time, Chemistry. I did extra research on chemistry, what can i do with it, as in working field and everything that related to it.
The rest is history.
My point is planning is a good thing. It makes you see yourself in the future. But, my biggest concern to myself is what will i do if i have no more plan. It got me thinking about my current state of life actually. I’m 23 now. I hope by 28, i will find someone to marry me. But referring to the current situation, i don’t think i will settle down by 28. I’m not worry about settling down, but i’m worry about what i want to do beyond that age. The plan lay inside my head is until i’m 28. What happen after that, i have no clue for myself. It would be lucky if i live to that age.
Currently, 5 years plan is devoted to work life, which i hope will give me enough excitement and fun and i hope to guide me through another 5 years plan of my life.
that’s all from me today. thank you for your time.
With Love,
Rahilah Abdul Halim
Wishing Upon the Star
August 19th, 2011 § 4 Comments
Good Day Readers.
I wanna share the best story i have so far. I GOT A JOB! Yeay! Alhamdulillah.
Its the same company i did my intern. They had a opening for Process Engineer in Molding Section. So, i go for the interview and i got it. Hehehe.
Job scope, not much a different from the one i did my intern before. Just that i’ve changed site from Finishing Section to Molding Section. Molding makes the contact lens. Finishing make sure the contact lens is wearable.
I will be a johorean after this, at least for 5 years, since i will be bonded to the company for 3 years because they wanna send me to Atlanta for training a new production system. Yeay again!.
Next step, must do soon is taking my driving license. A MUST! my big boss concern about me not having a driving license because there is a possibility that i might work late at night or on weekends. Huhu. Driving license is important people.
I will start working on 5th September. Cant wait!
That’s all for now,
with love
Rahilah
the reborn (i hope)
August 11th, 2011 § 2 Comments
Again, it’s been awhile since i write anything here. I miss writing, very much. Like one of my babes, Azureen wrote in her blog post. Missing the reader who actually reads my blog, missing the people opinion that i’ve got from each thoughtful post i wrote (at least i think it’s thoughtful). HAHA.
I realized i stop writing when i’m in a relationship. Every time i want to write something, it will become very personal. It comes to some extend that i don’t want people to know me very well or be apart of my personal life because to me, i need to trust that someone in order for me to reveal my personal part. I guess everyone are like that too.
I finally completed my tertiary education after 5 long and wonderful years. I realized that right now, i’m in my withdrawal syndrome. Leaving Miri is hard. I thought i won’t be thinking about Miri when i finished my studies. I was wrong. I do miss Miri, BADLY. Miri thought me to be a person, literary. Miri is a place that i wanna be again, if i can, in this 5 years time. My love is in Miri. But i think Abah was right. I love Miri because of the sense of independence that i’ve got there. Back in Shah Alam, i’m like a bird in a cage, literary. In Miri, i only have myself to think of, to take care of. I have to say, i forgot how to live as a family.
For now, i’m at home, job hunting. I hope i can get the best out of everything. It is the payback time now. I’m hoping and praying for the best.
Till next post people.
Lots of love,
Rahilah Abdul Halim
