Surprising yet Awesome weekend!
Posted by: rahilah on: February 9, 2010
- In: memories
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Current Mood: Rasa nak demam…huhu
Current Song: Officially Missing You by Tamia
Before aku story what happen for this weekend, i really wanna say Thank You God coz giving all these opportunities. Seriously, without You, none of these will happen. Truly bless with all the happening stuff. Alhamdulillah.
Sume ni actually x sepatutnye jadi. I’ve cancelled the Genting plan on Thursday because Iskandar tak lepas nak keluar. Mak die kadang2 can be a bit over protective. Yela, anak lelaki sorang, bongsu pulak tu. Memang la. Usually, kalo kitorg keluar berempat, which is aku, Ben, Is and Areen, yang bermasalah nak dapat permission in Areen and Is. Areen anak sulung perempuan. Truthfully, memang susah jgk kitorg nak keluar. Tu yg jarang dapat invite others tu. Sorry ek.
Friday Evening.
Last day of work for the week. Dah settle down on perancangan yg tak menjadi for the weekend, i was thinking about the backup plan. Tetibe msg masuk pukul 12.30 pm…
From: 017-3534793
U abis kerja pukul berape?
Damn! the ex boyfriend. Huhu. Dah la a day before aku gado tak pasal2 dengan die. Then, i’ve replied the msg.
Finish work at 5.30 pm. Nape?
Jom lepak2…
Otak aku ligat gile pusing…mamat ni kena santau ke, demam kapialu ke ape…kitorg x jumpe face to face almost 1 year. Everytime i wanna meet him, ade je alasan die, which kadang2 munasabah, kadang2 tak. Well, since i’m so eager to meet him, aku replied the msg. Asked him where he wants to lepak2, he asked me to decide. I said, lepak dekat2 my house jela since he said he wanted to go back home straight after meeting me. He said ok. Then, 2.30 pm, ade msg masuk lg. I thought its gonna be from Iskandar, turn out to be the ex..
Kite tengok wayang jom?
I was like WTF???? dah lama tak jumpa, ajak aku tengok wayang. Sengal sungguh. I asked when, he replied petang ni. Well, macam orang mengantuk di sorongkan bantal, i agreed to all his plan.
Sungguh aku tak tipu, i was nervous. As always. He’s the only person yg boleh buat aku rase butterfly in my stomach. Takde org lain lagi for now. Maybe kalo ade, that would be my upcoming bf la kot. We went to Summit, ate McD for dinner and watched The Spy Next Door. Simple night, which i miss so much to have it with him. Just the chat and to look into his eyes. I can’t explain the feeling. I told him that this hangout is his present to me for this year’s birthday. He just smiled.
Him
Upon all this and from past and present thought, i think all my close friend knows my problem with him. But instead, i decided to stay in this madness. I decided i won’t leave him at all. Don’t ask me to change my decision but keep on remind me that i choose to be in this way. Please 
Saturday Morning.
Since the Genting plan got cancel, i do what i have to do every Saturday morning, which is teaching kids on science. I’ll blog more about this later on. Tengah bersiap2 tu, tetibe msg masuk, 9.30 am…
From: Boyfie (Iskandar)
Kite gerak dalam pukul 12, bwk sweater. In case naik genting.
Aku termenung sebelum reply like this…
Ko biar betul…sound areen and ben la. Gerak lambat sikit, aku kena mengajar ni. Dalam 12.30 pm.
Aku mengajar kanak2 tu pasal Light. Tajuk yang agak susah untuk di’explain’ kepada kanak2 yg range umurnye between 9 to 17 years old, but seriously, i tried my best to make them understand. Dorang suke sangat experiment. Sedar2 dah pukul 11.45 am. Aku balik rumah dengan cepatnye sambil check msg…ade 1 when i thought it was from Boyfie lg, turn out to be from Izzat…
Cha…nak follow la…bole tak?
Aku dengan rela hatinye terus call Izzat, explain all the further plan. Die ckp die nak follow. Aku terus call Iskandar lepas tu. Confirmkan everything. Then, by 12.30 pm, gerak from my house, aku, Izzat and Iskandar. Amik Ben and Areen. Kami pun naik la ke Genting..
Uncle Izzat
Balong @ Ben
Iskandar @ Boyfie
yours truly
Areen
us =)
Flying Coaster yg buat aku semput nyawa
Venice Gandola
More other pic inside my facebook
Dinner at Big Plate. Memang banyak kot makanan die. Sumpah. Sangat banyak. Huhu.
Ayam Shah Alam...me & Areen's. Half bird tu. Seriously sedap.
Boyfie with Mixed Grill
Balong with makanan yg buat die rase mcm kambing
Izzat with Burger Beef
Genting tamat pada pukul 10.30 malam. Lepak rumah Ben kejap since family die takda. Settle hutang makan, minyak & tol dengan Is. Is hantar Areen balik, i’m with Ben and Izzat.
Saturday Midnight.
Dah hantar Izzat balik rumah becoz gf die dah buat 48 miscall, i was out with Ben to Carefour Subang Jaya, to pick up someone and melepak. That someone ade kena mengena dengan Ben la. I was out all night because my dad called me during the dinner, said that he and mommy kat rumah Kak Long Tembam kat Keramat. Daddy tak bgtau pun i have to go to my cousin’s house. My brother pun tak cakap pape. So, i were free like a bird that night. Memang ronggeng la aku.
Lepak dekat Carlos USJ 9. I wanna meet someone yg dah lama tak jumpe. I texted Farhan, my USJian friend. He was with Hana, my bestie and Naim dekat Tanjung USJ 9, which selang 3 buah kedai je dari Carlos tu…haha. Met them, borak tepi jalan. Best seyh dapat jumpe dorg. Its been awhile pun.
Lepas dekat Carlos, kitorg pegi jumpe Areen kat USJ 23. Personal stuff. Hantar Areen balik rumah, we went to McD Section 26. Chatting non stop sampai pukul 7.00 am. Lepas tu, follow Ben hantar mamat tu balik rumah die kat USJ 1 then, i’m back at my house and on my bed around 7.30 am. Kunci jam untuk bangun 1.00 pm because nak pegi kenduri kawin kakak Fairous.
Sunday Mid Evening.
Pergi kenduri kakak Fairous with Areen, Ben and Is. Met Aina, Ain Ketot, Zayid, Farhana, my ex, Qayum and Fidot. Hehe. Almost all the people aku nak jumpe cuti ni, dah terjumpa.
We ended up looking for cendol after that, tapi xde. Huhu. Balik dengan hati hampa.
Overall, i had fun sangat weekend ni. More than i asked for. I just want Genting because its for Ben’s bday and convo celebration. hehe. Well, i think everyone who joined the journey felt the same way as i am.
That all for now
Bien à vous
yours aye in going to demam state but had thousands of fun 
imperfecto
Posted by: rahilah on: February 2, 2010
Current Mood: my swings hit me…badly
Current Song: Entah by Afghan
Things do happen for certain reasons
but maybe i’m just too weak to face the fact.
To me, reasons are just bullshit. Define reasons. Define excuses.
I left my heart somewhere, long time ago.
No one has picked it up yet
maybe it just too dirty to be touched by angel’s hand.
Well, the fact that i’m not a saint nor a nice princess does hatred towards me.
I am what i am.
Take it or leave it. The choice is truly yours.
Lord wants me to learn, that’s why He still keeps me around.
I’ve met few experiences, they said hi, i asked why.
I’ve come across darkness, they waved, i tried to hide.
I’ve stumbled upon light, they called, i walked back.
I’ve tried to kill but i died at the same time.
This is life & i live in it.
Dearie Bro 20th Bday
Posted by: rahilah on: February 1, 2010
Current Mood: Excited for the weekend
Current Song: Never Knew I Needed by Ne-Yo
Happy 20th birthday. May all your wishes come true. I love you alot
bien à vous
yours aye in state of extrem happiness
p/s: hopefully pegi genting sabtu ni, i have weddings to attend sunday morning and replacement class sunday evening
Adultary
Posted by: rahilah on: January 24, 2010
- In: thoughts
- 9 Comments
Current Mood: Penat kerja
Current Song: Carry Out by Timberland feat. Justin Timberlake
*title can be very deceiving*
After 4 years of single life, i hope i can finally find someone to settle down, when i want to, when i have to, when i needed to.
But then, i realize that i’m too picky (for certain reason). Yeah. As i always does, i tends to analyse people. Because i had a very bad experience on dealing with humans.
Yesterday night, i was with Iqbal for quite a time before Iskandar came and join us at Serambi. Accompanied Iqbal who wanted to have dinner after his freaking tiring convo. Congrats agian sulu
Well, there were this conversation which triggered this post…
Rahilah: Aku tak faham macam mana orang sekarang boleh fikir utk kawin muda.
Iqbal: Asl ek?
Rahilah: Tak tau la orang lain kan, tapi utk aku, diri aku sendiri pun tak terurus, ni kan lagi nak ade family and uruskan family and future kerjaya. Gila. Dua benda tu, mempunyai saiz kerja yg sama besar kot.
Iqbal: Tersangat la betul. Aku pun mcm tu jgk.
Point saya di sini, saya tak memperlekehkan orang kawin muda, seriously because my parents got married in young age. I once asked my mom, what did she missed out of all the years she been through, she said she missed the part of being young and happy and joyful. Nevertheless, she had all her time during her high school day and being a wife and mom does give her the joy as well, different kind she said. But, she always told me to complete my schools first, get a job, get a house and a car, then you may settle down. That’s why i hear no objection when i told her i wanna get married at the age of 28. She even told me, all that stuff matters when you jump into the marriage world because you can’t never predict what happen to it. Of course, you want to have a prefect marriage but in the reality, there are no such thing as perfect.
My next point gonna be abit more serious. Kids. Sume orang nak anak bile kawin kan. There’s no doubt about it. Tapi, there’s gonna be a problem when orang yg berkahwin tu tak memahami part menjadi seorang ibu bapa. Most parents yang bekerja fikir, dengan bagi anak anda makan and pakai yg cukup, tu dah equal tu kasih sayang. I found ramai gile parents around me berfikiran mcm tu. Well, its understandable yg anda bekerja, tapi at least, luangkan masa untuk anak anda. Kalo tak dapat pagi before pergi kerja, make sure that you are at home for dinner. Kalo tak dapat jgk, at least hug your daughter or son before dorg tido or waktu dorg tengah tido pun. They feel the love, especially kanak2 and anak2 remaja yg baru nak membesar. Another thing, there’s a thing called morale support which ibu and bapa sekarang tak ramai yg amik endah pun. For sure i can’t compared any parents out there with my parents. They’ve been with me and my brother practically all the time, for morale support. Maybe orang akan cakap, mak saya tak bekerja. Memang die tak bekerja, but tu bukan alasan. When there’s a will, there’s a way.
My parents puase everytime my brother and i had any major exams, without fail. They even went to send my brother every weekend when he enrolled to a football club when he wanted to play amatur. They sat there until he finished his training. They even support us when our basketball team joined any tournament. My mom walked with me 4 km to and fro my tuition centre for 2 years. She did that again with my dad during my brother’s time. They attended all our prize giving ceremony during school times, parents-teachers day. Usually my dad will take a leave for any important event. He said, there is nothing better that being proud of your own children accomplishment. My mom is the backbone for everything we owned today. They who make me strong till today. Now, you understand why i devastated when i had bad result. Its not about the money i owned my dad or my mom. Its because they fought the war with me and i failed them, sometimes badly.
Well, you might agree or do not agree with me. You might have your own opinion and thought about this. I shall leave you with mine. This is something that i consider so bad if i wanna be someone bride. You just don’t get married and live happily ever after. You have RESPONSIBILITIES. Your own parents, your in-laws, your work, your husband, your kids, your friends, yourselves. Maybe orang yang berfikir pasal ni, sebab tu die boleh decide untuk berkahwin. A phrase that i really remembered my mom always told me, ‘kalo ko kahwin, ko bukan kahwin dengan husband ko sorang je. You married his family, his life, his attitude…all of things that related to him’.
I hope if i am ready to involve in membina rumah tangga, i am ought to become like my mother and i am SERIOUSLY looking for a man that can share the common things like my dad. That’s why i become picky at the first place. After Zarul, i come to my senses that he’s not gonna be the one, eventhough i tried to block every little things that my mom told me why she dislikes him at the first place.
That’s all for a thoughtful entry. I miss writing something like this.
Bien à vous
Yours aye in the state of excited to go Genting! hehe
p/s: sorry for the long entry
Weekender <3
Posted by: rahilah on: January 10, 2010
- In: memories
- 5 Comments
Current Mood: Enjoying the life
Current Song: Quicksand by Bethany Joy Galeotti
Started working last week. Do nothing actually. Just like the old work but even better this time because the company sell pumps for industrial usage. It reminds me a lot of Fluid Mechanics, Process Plant Engineering, Process Instrumentation and Control as well as Process Engineering Material classes. Haha. The charts, the graph…everything except the calculation that we usually do it manual, they have software to do that. Cool gile. Haha. I’m in my mood to read my intelectual stuff to impress my boss. Haha. But she’s an old timer man. Worked for Grundfos for 8 years before she started her own business 4 years ago. FYI, Grundfos is a Germany’s company for pumps manufacturing but sadly in Malaysia, they only done sales and services. Thank GOD my application for intern hari ya sik lulus. If not, i have to sell a pump! Oh tidak! I don’t sell things. I can’t! hehe.
I am going to be a part time teacher at the school near my house, gonna teach Science to the kids. Hopefully i can….hopefully. I know i am great of being a nerd but a teacher? Aku takut i just gonna shout at the kids like i shout at Jengga kalo dorg degil and malas. Huhu.
Celebrated Fairouszana’s 22nd birthday yesterday with Ain Ketot, Ben and Areen. Others dah start busy. Sedey wo…huhu. But, we had fun for sure. Dengan mee yang best and gossip2 yang hangat. Apologise Ketot untuk certain things yang aku terlepas cakap…hehe. I supposed to wake up early to go Proton Family day, held at Proton this time, which is boring. The last time i went to the family day when i was in Form 2 kot. I just wanna visited my dad’s new office but kinda lazy la. Haha.
the cuppies by Ain Ketot...thanx sayang
Went to Leonardo Da Vinci exhibition’s at Pusat Sains Negara today. My ticket was free due to MAS sponsor. Haha. Awesome kan but sadly no picture can be taken inside the exhibition. Huhu. Alot of things actually. The one that facinates Ben and i was the mechanical clock, using springs and gears. Cool gile. Some other things were the wings that Wright Brothers used as reference for their aeroplane, submarine gears, the secret of Mona Lisa (there are 25 secrets inside the picture), one of his famous painting (Virgin of the Rock), his sketches for human bodies in details and macam2 lagi. Kinda educational trip but i like. Hehe.
me in Da Vinci's Parallel Miror. Tangkap curi2 ni...hehe
well, that’s all for now. Hopefully something nice happen soon..
Bien à vous,
yours aye in healthy state
p/s: changed my signature for this year. Its weird that people never ask me why i sign off my post with ‘without wax’. Without wax actually a literary meaning for sincerely. Sincerely derives from Spanish word, Sin cera = without wax. Its dated back to history when the artisan in Rome usually crafted the marble to build a statue or figure. They usually cover it up with wax if there is any deformation to the statue. Kinda nice kan
i wonder…
Posted by: rahilah on: January 3, 2010
I wonder a lot of things lately…that’s what you do when you have too many curiosity inside you.
But for me, i tends to just do the things that i curious of. It’s much better that way. You don’t waste your time to wonder.
Still, there is the price to pay for realizing my ‘wonder’ thought. Most of the time, it puts me in the position of testing my principles and believes. I’m not such a religious person. Sometimes, i found myself holding the principle ‘matlamat menghalalkan cara’ closed to my heart. Sure, i might sound crazy to any of you who reading this, but my dearie closed friend would understand why.
I tends to be too carefree. I don’t care what people thinks, i only care what my parents think. Sometimes, i don’t care at all. Well, i learn that you can’t just delete everything and live in the world like it is yours because it isn’t.
I really wanna open up about myself but i can’t because of my one and only fear, people’s impression. YES, i am afraid of people’s impression. Very much. I think it’s because i live in the neighbourhood that talks about other people. How a girl should behave, how you should wear your cloths, how you should act. I get fed up being controlled that way for 18 years. SERIOUSLY.
Plus, it’s a pressure when people knows your family. Too much. You not only carry your family expectation, but people who lives around you as well. I HAVE to perform well, be well and good because the people here look up to my family. The truth is i don’t care what people wanna say about me, but i CARE TOO MUCH on what they gonna say about my parents. They are my life. Yes, i am a very protective person. If the people here jenis tak amik kisah hal orang, i don’t mind at all. But, dorg ni sangat suka jaga tepi kain orang and menjaja jahat orang lain.
Sometimes, i really wanna scream and yell to this people to get out of my fucking life but…kite tinggal dekat kawasan yg berjiran. You can’t just ignore your neighbourhood for some reasons.
AND for all this, i have to put on a ‘mask’ to protect my family. It’s not something that i want to do,i have to instead.
Beginning of 2010
Posted by: rahilah on: January 3, 2010
- In: memories
- 2 Comments
Celebrated 2010 a bit late compared to everyone in the world (except people in USA and South America).
Nearly 12 hours of outing. Still can’t bit the record during Valentine. Haha.
Went out with Iskandar, Ben, Areen and Fairous to One Utama.
Watched Shelock Holmes. Awesome and cool movie indeed. Go watch it to whoever haven’t watch it yet. 4.75 out of 5 stars. Haha. PLEASE WATCH IT!
Went to The Curve after that. Strolling along the pathway. Its raining. Kinda karma when four of us went out together. Haha.
Me, Areen and Fairous tried a dress at Esprit. FYI people, i’m a 12! GOD! 12!…gemuk nye. Huhu. Fairous is a 0..huhu. Jealous aku!
me in mess...haha. I love the dress!!!
*this dress is 14. I tried previous one, a 10, i can’t fit in. So, my conclusion is that i’m a 12. Hehe
Fairous as well gained a status in the family, Kak Long. Ben turun pangkat jadi Bang Ngah. Is as Ucu. Areen as Achik.
family of 2010
without wax,
yours truly in new year state
The Right Man???
Posted by: rahilah on: January 1, 2010
- In: thoughts
- 11 Comments
Current Mood: So happy for no reason
Current Song: The Right Man by Christina Aguilera (thanks to Mea darling, you introduced me to this song)
Since my new resolution is i wanna get married, i think its a time to reveal the guy(s) that had captured my heart long time ago. I’m in love with them, period. If you like to be mine, you have to top these 10 guys first, then you and i MAYBE can go for a fine dinner one day 
James Lafferty
Brendan Fehr
Channing Tatum
Josh Duhamel
Leonardo Di Caprio
Ryan Phillippe
Shane West
Taylor Lautner
Thomas Dekker
Ryan Reynolds
Top that, bitches! Haha
Anyway, i wanna make this a tag. Hehe. Therefore, i tag these 10 lovely ladies to pick up their 10 handsome man
- Liyana
- Abby
- Mea
- Azureen
- Ain Ketot
- Syepah
- Dinash
- Peeya
- Wani Duckie
- Nadea Yaya
p/s: People, i know you might not have alot of time like me (because i’m such a lazy ass bum) but promise me you take time to do it ya 
The end of 2009 (editted version)
Posted by: rahilah on: December 30, 2009
- In: memories| thoughts
- 2 Comments
Till today, i think 2009 is the most roller-coaster life that i ever had.
I did the most major mistake in my life. I didn’t perform well in my studies. I did what i want instead of what i should do. I’ve learnt that life sometimes can be pretty nasty towards me, although most of the time, i’m the one who made it that way. I live through guilts, sins and pride this year.
BUT
Above all that, i had the most joyful year as well. Celebrated my birthday for 1 week. Went to the prom for the first time. Went to Lambir and Niah after 3 years living in Miri. Played bowling for the first time. Joined Student Council election. Lived my life with Football for one whole year. 3rd year unit were tough and hard but its fun to learn. Gain thousands of knowledge. Special liqo’ with Kak Jam yang sangat penyabar.
All and all, i can define 2009 as the year where i learn the decision i made defines who i am.
What i wish for 2010 is a better life that i gonna try to have it. Please amuse me 2010
*here are the activities at the end of 2009
Mas & Aman Engagement (12 Dec 2009)
Sayang saya bertunang (Nasri & Kak Areen)
Dinash & Farhana at Megah Seafood
Zayid & Ben at Megah Seafood
Free Starbuck punya pasal...dapat Black Coffee je
Fadzrel & Faiz at Starbuck Sunway Pyramid
Azman yg sakit perut & Fadzrel at Starbucks Sunway Pyramid
My babe Liyana & Emir at Starbucks Sunway Pyramid
During Xmas celebration at Mid Valley
Hantaran Kawin Kak Long Esah (my cousin)
without wax,
yours truly welcoming 2010 with open heart, open mind and open hand
