the reborn (i hope)

Again, it’s been awhile since i write anything here. I miss writing, very much. Like one of my babes, Azureen wrote in her blog post. Missing the reader who actually reads my blog, missing the people opinion that i’ve got from each thoughtful post i wrote (at least i think it’s thoughtful). HAHA.

I realized i stop writing when i’m in a relationship. Every time i want to write something, it will become very personal. It comes to some extend that i don’t want people to know me very well or be apart of my personal life because to me, i need to trust that someone in order for me to reveal my personal part. I guess everyone are like that too.

I finally completed my tertiary education after 5 long and wonderful years. I realized that right now, i’m in my withdrawal syndrome. Leaving Miri is hard. I thought i won’t be thinking about Miri when i finished my studies. I was wrong. I do miss Miri, BADLY. Miri thought me to be a person, literary. Miri is a place that i wanna be again, if i can, in this 5 years time. My love is in Miri. But i think Abah was right. I love Miri because of the sense of independence that i’ve got there. Back in Shah Alam, i’m like a bird in a cage, literary. In Miri, i only have myself to think of, to take care of. I have to say, i forgot how to live as a family.

For now, i’m at home, job hunting. I hope i can get the best out of everything. It is the payback time now. I’m hoping and praying for the best.

 

Till next post people.

Lots of love,

Rahilah Abdul Halim

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