Current mood: EMO too much
Current song: What Am I To You by Norah Jones
I just feel really useless lately. Unknown to even myself what makes me down and really stress up. I dont have unfinished assignment (exception to the Chem Lab). I have no mood to even revise a bit any of my unit (exception to Heat Transfer Tutorial which i skip on the last week of teaching week. I dont even understand a heck of it).
I AM IN MY MOOD SWING TIME.
I never had this type of mood swing before. I mean, not as horrible as this. Too much personal problems i guess. Sometimes, i just get carried away with it when i have too much of free time. I wanna let go because i know its been taking care of but i’m stuck in the situation where i cant even have the ability to help and even to be cool with it. Too much pressure.
I do sometimes feel that i create my own mess. Why GOD? Why testing me with all the problems that i’m facing now? I tried to be strong, for me, for my family but sometimes i let my emotional took control of me. I know i been away too much from you, My GOD. Help me through all this mess.
All this things happen is it because of the way i choose my life to be? The way i wanna it to be without ur blessing. I know i have ur blessing. I know U are always there to judge me. I AM AWARE OF THAT.
I am trying my best but i guess my best wasnt good enough. I know.
DEAR GOD, do help me get over all my mess. There is now one that i can turn for help except YOU.