The end of 2009 (editted version)

Till today, i think 2009 is the most roller-coaster life that i ever had.

I did the most major mistake in my life. I didn’t perform well in my studies. I did what i want instead of what i should do. I’ve learnt that life sometimes can be pretty nasty towards me, although most of the time, i’m the one who made it that way. I live through guilts, sins and pride this year.


Above all that, i had the most joyful year as well. Celebrated my birthday for 1 week. Went to the prom for the first time. Went to Lambir and Niah after 3 years living in Miri. Played bowling for the first time. Joined Student Council election. Lived my life with Football for one whole year. 3rd year unit were tough and hard but its fun to learn. Gain thousands of knowledge. Special liqo’ with Kak Jam yang sangat penyabar.

All and all, i can define 2009 as the year where i learn the decision i made defines who i am.

What i wish for 2010 is a better life that i gonna try to have it. Please amuse me 2010 🙂

*here are the activities at the end of 2009

Mas & Aman Engagement (12 Dec 2009)

Sayang saya bertunang (Nasri & Kak Areen)

Dinash & Farhana at Megah Seafood

Zayid & Ben at Megah Seafood

Free Starbuck punya pasal...dapat Black Coffee je

Fadzrel & Faiz at Starbuck Sunway Pyramid

Azman yg sakit perut & Fadzrel at Starbucks Sunway Pyramid

My babe Liyana & Emir at Starbucks Sunway Pyramid

During Xmas celebration at Mid Valley

Hantaran Kawin Kak Long Esah (my cousin)

without wax,

yours truly welcoming 2010 with open heart, open mind and open hand 🙂


Dedicate this song to my boo

Almost by Tamia

[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she’s never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that’s to late
And how could I really mean the words I’m bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 2]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should’ve grabbed you up and never let you go
I should’ve went out with you
I should’ve made you my boo boy
Yes that’s one time I should’ve broke the rules
I should’ve went on a date
Should’ve found a way to escape
Should’ve turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn’t real
And if it didn’t happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 3]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You’re all that I ever wanted
And you’re my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I’m in love with you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

p/s: nothing will change about you and me. i accept that. very well indeed. this song is how i feel about you. lame and melodrama, i know 🙂


*Nothing much happen lately.

*I conclude that 2nd semester are the worst time for me. Like last year, i got my first 5 for Process Principle. This year, i got my first Conceded Pass for Thermodynamics. I am hoping that i won’t get my first Fail by next year. I just can’t digest that unit. Seriously. I thank God for that CP. It could have been worst, like supp or fail. Gonna redeem it back next semester. It surely drag down my average to 70.81. Huhu. How la to graduate First Class cam ya. 2nd Class Upper pun belum tentu.

*Still not working yet. Abah suruh duduk rumah for December. If i want to work, maybe January. December has alot of stuff to do. Hangouts and weddings and birthdays and i don’t have any money at all and i’m stress about that.

*Went to dentist in Section 7, had lunch at PPUM with Areen, went to IIUCT with Ben. Nice day out 🙂

*Hangout with Iskandar, Fadzrel, Emir, Zul and Ben on Thursday night. Discussing about the small gathering. Penat weh plan, seriously. Over here, we have to meet each other every holiday. Kinda routine.

*Going to Mas’s Engagement tomorrow. I think i’ll get to see my present from Boo as well. I miss him

*by next week, another plan has been made. Just wait and see.

without wax,

yours truly in moneyless state


I stumbled upon this good blog when i was looking for the old pic of Leonardo DiCaprio…huhu.

i’m just a human being

I think he likes football i guess….somehow i can relate the way he (i assume) tries to describe things just like my brother. Straight to the point, reflective and honest.

If my brother has a blog la….hahaha. But i don’t think so….

p/s: blog about the result and some other things that i saw for past couple of days later. Till then, enjoy the new blog that i found 🙂

2 Events with 1 Happy Me

Current Mood: Sakit gigi. Damn it!

Current Song: Mama Do (Uh Oh Uh Oh) by Pixie Lott

Thursday, 3 December 2009.

Went to FRIM with my USJian chicas. We had jungle walking and picnic. Me, my twin and Nisa didn’t complete the jungle walking journey. Haha. All of us wore unsuitable cloth for the occasion actually because all of us thought that the jungle walking has its own track, as in a really proper track. Turned out that the track was even horror than Lambir jungle tracking, as well as the difficulties of the track. But my other chicas walk it through tho. Awesome day indeed!

us frm Alina's view

us from Ika's view

they made it to the top

Mardiah & Nisa

Ika & Alina

me & my twin



Saturday, 5 December 2009.

My Mak Su Elly’s wedding at Ipoh. Met all my grandparents and uncles and aunts. It was awesome!. Mak Su Elly is my dad’s cousin. Her mother is my late grand father’s sister. Since my grandparents passed away, so its my dad duty to attend all the official occasion of the family. My late grandfather was the eldest of the family and my dad was their only son. So, you can imagine me being the first grandchild of the family. Everyone loves me. No doubt. Haha. Sometimes, its kinda pressure on me you know, or maybe it happens in Perakian family or maybe in Banjar family. Yes, i am Banjar. Huhu.

Mommy & Opah Ani

Mak Su Liza, Opah Ani, Makcik Jaja, Mak Su Tijah

Pak Long Azim, Bro Dearie, Pak Su Shairy

Atuk Busu and Co.

the Haji Yusof's family (sons and daughters and grandchildrens)

Pak Su & Mak Su Elly

Opah Su

Pak Long Faizal

That’s all from me this week. We shall see what next week lay out for me. First thing to worry is the exam result. Huhu. I can feel the cuakness. Second, i MUST find part time work. I need money weh. Seriously. Haha. I think i gonna meet my Sayang this week. Can’t wait for my present, this time for my Boo. Hehe. No more sharing. I think its gonna be another bear. Bear collections! yeay! Mas’s engagement on Saturday. I don’t know how to get to her house. Huhu. Maybe i’ll be going with TC.

That’s all for last week. Wish all the best for my Curtinian family’s exam result. I hope i pass my Thermodynamics and PIC. That’s all i want. Pass! Please dearie God!

Anxiously waiting for this week,

without wax,

yours truly

The Lepaksss Crews

Current Mood: Still sakit nak ketawa banyak2

Current Song: 3 by Britney Spears

Kinda funny when my mom said, ‘Hp ko x berbunyi, xde org nak ajak ko keluar ke?’…haha. Mak aku perli aku rupenye. Well, she forgot that her daughter is so popular. With just a call, she can have whoever she wants to hangout with her. Haha (berlagaknye bunyi but betul tu). I was going to be a bit hommie this time around, nak tolong mak duduk rumah, jadi maid tak bergaji, just that the problem is mak saya pun tak nak saya duduk rumah je. Macam mane tu..haha. Thus, i had 2 straight days of melepak with my primary school members. Without fail, tiap kali balik, i shall have my moment with them. Ade je stories nak kena report back to me. That’s the best part being me (again, berlagak lg but betul). Haha.

Sunday, 29 November 2009.

1st day of lepak. That evening suppose to be only me and Izzat je. I texted him a day before because i dreamt about him. Mimpi yang jenis orang couple dream about their love ones. Camtu la aku mimpi pasal Izzat. Kinda weird kan. I know. I was shocked kot after bangun dari mimpi tu. But i think it makes sense la because i didn’t get to meet him during my winter holiday though. So, i told him i’m going to lepak2 with him. He came to my house. We lepak kat the basketball court near my house. After talk for about 2 hours, i was thinking to go somewhere else. Then, the idea pop up. Calling all the crews that already here. 1st, Ben. Die baru sampai rumah from Muar when i called him. Terus on. Haha. 2nd, my bf Iskandar. ‘Perempuan’ tu kat kampung. Tak balik lagi. Next was Azman Afiq. Mamat putih ni cukup la susah nak ajak die lepak. Sumpah tak tipu pasti. Haha. After that, called Ketot. Die pun baru balik from jalan2. I called her because i didn’t get to hangout out with her twice, during the Valentine day and during my winter break. She’s on as well. Next on the list, Faiz. Lepas tu, Areen and Fairous. Areen on but Fairous pegi rumah makcik die. Siot sungguh minah itu. Ended up only 6 of us, me, Ben, Areen, Ketot, Faiz and Izzat. Lepak kat Darussalam, SS 15. Gelak tak ingat dunia. Macam2 la cerita yang keluar. Cerita Ketot yang xleh blah skali. Haha. I can’t tell it here but mmg that girl is just a berani mati girl i tell you. Haha.

Areen & Ketot

Areen & Ketot

Faiz & Ben

Izzat, lelaki yg ku mimpi (minus his new hair, gonna ask him to chop it off)

Monday, 30 November 2009.

Announcement of having fun the day before in facebook makes few of my friends that i know are here, at home but i just forgot to call, jealous. Haha. Oleh kerana itu, i decided to call for another day of lepak. This time consists of Fadhil, Sufi, Ayeep, Fadzrel, Ben, Faiz, Hidayah & her bf, Fairous and me. Actually, its Dayah idea sebenarnye. She went to Poland when she was 15 and just get back 1 year ago. She didn’t get to go to the ultimate reunion before. Since she insists to meet, i called up few peoples that i missed to bring during the Sunday part. Well, kali ni sangat la best mengenakan Hidayah @ Pae. Die tak ingat member…haha. Memang la kena bahan tahap yg aku rase org2 kat Melur USJ 16 tu nak baling makanan kat muka kitorg kot. Me, Ben and Faiz just can’t laugh anymore.

Hidayah @ Pae & bf nye

Sufi & Ayeep

Ben & Fadzrel

Fadhil & Faiz

Rous & the ugliest me

That’s all for now. Eid was fun. Like always. Helped my mom cooked and do abit of chores. Trust me. I am a very lazy woman on earth if you ask me to do house work. Helped my dad on his working stuff. Helped my brother yg pecah kepala to choose his university. Well, i do the easy work la kan. Haha.

If the plan fall through, i will be having picnic on Thursday with my USJian clan at FRIM. Gonna do some walking in the jungle…haha. Friday, will be meeting an agent for my brother’s uni stuff and go Ipoh to attend my Maksu Elly’s wedding. Next weekeed, my best babe, Mas bertunang. Next next weekend, planning of reunion. Final weekend of the month, my cousion, Kak Long Ecah’s wedding. So basically, my December weekend are fully booked. You guys have weekdays to visit me ok! 😉 hehe.

I will have problem with money this time around because i have no job until today. I don’t think i gonna do my internship this time because its too late already. I might just as well enjoy the holiday. Hehe. But will be looking for part time work soon. I need money to shop!

Exam result will be release soon. Saya dah pasrah. I already told my family of the possibility repeating one unit but i hope i don’t. Just give me a suppliment paper enough. I’ll work hard on that supp paper. Please dear God. Or just give me a pass of 5. I don’t dare ask for more.

Well, that’s all from me. See you guys soon.


Without wax,

your truly in state of mixing emotion