Current Mood: Penat kerja
Current Song: Carry Out by Timberland feat. Justin Timberlake
*title can be very deceiving*
After 4 years of single life, i hope i can finally find someone to settle down, when i want to, when i have to, when i needed to.
But then, i realize that i’m too picky (for certain reason). Yeah. As i always does, i tends to analyse people. Because i had a very bad experience on dealing with humans.
Yesterday night, i was with Iqbal for quite a time before Iskandar came and join us at Serambi. Accompanied Iqbal who wanted to have dinner after his freaking tiring convo. Congrats agian sulu 🙂
Well, there were this conversation which triggered this post…
Rahilah: Aku tak faham macam mana orang sekarang boleh fikir utk kawin muda.
Iqbal: Asl ek?
Rahilah: Tak tau la orang lain kan, tapi utk aku, diri aku sendiri pun tak terurus, ni kan lagi nak ade family and uruskan family and future kerjaya. Gila. Dua benda tu, mempunyai saiz kerja yg sama besar kot.
Iqbal: Tersangat la betul. Aku pun mcm tu jgk.
Point saya di sini, saya tak memperlekehkan orang kawin muda, seriously because my parents got married in young age. I once asked my mom, what did she missed out of all the years she been through, she said she missed the part of being young and happy and joyful. Nevertheless, she had all her time during her high school day and being a wife and mom does give her the joy as well, different kind she said. But, she always told me to complete my schools first, get a job, get a house and a car, then you may settle down. That’s why i hear no objection when i told her i wanna get married at the age of 28. She even told me, all that stuff matters when you jump into the marriage world because you can’t never predict what happen to it. Of course, you want to have a prefect marriage but in the reality, there are no such thing as perfect.
My next point gonna be abit more serious. Kids. Sume orang nak anak bile kawin kan. There’s no doubt about it. Tapi, there’s gonna be a problem when orang yg berkahwin tu tak memahami part menjadi seorang ibu bapa. Most parents yang bekerja fikir, dengan bagi anak anda makan and pakai yg cukup, tu dah equal tu kasih sayang. I found ramai gile parents around me berfikiran mcm tu. Well, its understandable yg anda bekerja, tapi at least, luangkan masa untuk anak anda. Kalo tak dapat pagi before pergi kerja, make sure that you are at home for dinner. Kalo tak dapat jgk, at least hug your daughter or son before dorg tido or waktu dorg tengah tido pun. They feel the love, especially kanak2 and anak2 remaja yg baru nak membesar. Another thing, there’s a thing called morale support which ibu and bapa sekarang tak ramai yg amik endah pun. For sure i can’t compared any parents out there with my parents. They’ve been with me and my brother practically all the time, for morale support. Maybe orang akan cakap, mak saya tak bekerja. Memang die tak bekerja, but tu bukan alasan. When there’s a will, there’s a way.
My parents puase everytime my brother and i had any major exams, without fail. They even went to send my brother every weekend when he enrolled to a football club when he wanted to play amatur. They sat there until he finished his training. They even support us when our basketball team joined any tournament. My mom walked with me 4 km to and fro my tuition centre for 2 years. She did that again with my dad during my brother’s time. They attended all our prize giving ceremony during school times, parents-teachers day. Usually my dad will take a leave for any important event. He said, there is nothing better that being proud of your own children accomplishment. My mom is the backbone for everything we owned today. They who make me strong till today. Now, you understand why i devastated when i had bad result. Its not about the money i owned my dad or my mom. Its because they fought the war with me and i failed them, sometimes badly.
Well, you might agree or do not agree with me. You might have your own opinion and thought about this. I shall leave you with mine. This is something that i consider so bad if i wanna be someone bride. You just don’t get married and live happily ever after. You have RESPONSIBILITIES. Your own parents, your in-laws, your work, your husband, your kids, your friends, yourselves. Maybe orang yang berfikir pasal ni, sebab tu die boleh decide untuk berkahwin. A phrase that i really remembered my mom always told me, ‘kalo ko kahwin, ko bukan kahwin dengan husband ko sorang je. You married his family, his life, his attitude…all of things that related to him’.
I hope if i am ready to involve in membina rumah tangga, i am ought to become like my mother and i am SERIOUSLY looking for a man that can share the common things like my dad. That’s why i become picky at the first place. After Zarul, i come to my senses that he’s not gonna be the one, eventhough i tried to block every little things that my mom told me why she dislikes him at the first place.
That’s all for a thoughtful entry. I miss writing something like this.
Bien à vous
Yours aye in the state of excited to go Genting! hehe 😀
p/s: sorry for the long entry