Current Mood: Content & calm…yet…
Current Song: Shadow of The Day by Linkin Park
Perfect song to explain my condition now.
I have nothing in specific to write but i just feel like blogging. So, here it goes.
Been so busy with schools and CFC. I have 3 major assignment (Risk Group Report, TP Assignment and PSD Project) to due and 3 major test (Risk Test 2, PSD Test and MTO Test 2) to sit before heading to the study week. Time fly so fast i can’t even recall any specific event that happen in between.
Truly sorry to my Geologian friends. I know i’ve been skipping alot of get together events with you guys. Honestly, i feel left out but yeah. There’s nothing i can do to change that, can’t i? Will try my best to make it up to you guys later on ok 🙂
I wasn’t really devastated that Abang is no longer here with me but i know he’s not around. For the past 4 years, i feel prefectly good in doing anything because i know i have a person to count on, to fall off if anything happen. I feel like i’m loosing half of myself now. The same feeling i had when i came to Miri, back in 2006. I left my dearie good brother for Curtin. Its sucks like hell when you just being cut off from your siblings, despite having all means of communication. I still want my dearie brother and Abang to be with me, in flesh.
I realised i don’t talk much about football this sem. I’m tired of it honestly. Dog tired. The same feeling i had when i was in my third semester in CIS committee. Its a sign to move on, for sure. It just that i can’t seems to leave my work to anyone else currently. No one wanna handle money for sure. I’m still in the search of The One to replace me next sem. I supposed to leave the post this semester but the current president want me and Abby to be in the committee. Talk about peope trust in me. I’m scared of that. Scared of the trust. That’s why i try so hard to complete my work every week. I’m at where i am today because of people trust in me. But, for certain, CIS and CFC gives me much joy and happiness. The happiness of seeing people coming together for the event, appreciation from other people. It means so much to me.
Personal life is at stake currently. I keep on liking a guy that belong to someone else. I seriously don’t indulge that for sure. Been labelling myself as a bitch. I want to cut all the communication and move on but, this time around, i have a really sensitive person as a crush. Its just hard but i don’t want to hurt his feeling, not even a single scratch. He’s been treating me well, much much better than all the previous crushes i have before. Not that i wanna compare or anything, but he does care about how i feel, different from all the other crushes of mine. For once, i really want him as my bf. But given the thought of how bad i am as a person, i guess he’s way better with his current gf. I don’t really deserve any good guy at all.
For sure, i can’t wait for 28th June. Will be going back to KL on that date. And apology to Mas because won’t be able to attend your wedding babe. Huhu. Need to find placement for my intern for end of this year. Hopefully i’ll be able to do it in Shah Alam. I consider Miri as my last resort though. Gonna enjoy the holiday to the fullest this time because Sulu is going to Australia early July. Finally, one of my genius closed friend completing his degree overseas. I’m gonna miss him soon.
My brother will be leaving to UK soon, insyaAllah if everything goes as plan. I’m so proud of him. He got what he wishes for all this while. So jealous of him. His determination pay off. I don’t really have that drive in me anymore. The only thought that makes me moving forward now is completing my degree and start work. That’s all. I’ve decided not to go to Perth for my final year. As much as i really wanna go, i guess my destiny is here, in Miri.
That’s all for now i guess.
Bien á vous
yours aye in the state of confusion