The Lists

Things i’ve done so far

  • Do all the wrong things
  • Helping kids in all kind of way
  • Using my ability at the best
  • Trying hard to absorb all the important knowledges
  • Fallen for all the wrong guys
  • Fought with mom alot
  • Lied to parents
  • Try to love the family as much as i can
  • Learnt Mandrin

Things i wanna do after finish degree (must be accomplished before i’m 28)

  • Take IELST
  • Take Engineering Management or¬†Cosmetology¬†for Master or PhD
  • Learn one more language (preferably French or Spanish)
  • Try to get work at any of the known cosmetic company or chemical manufacturer
  • Learn Tango and Pole Dance
  • Learn Violin
  • Take driving lesson
  • Polish my Mandrin
  • Join EWB

Things i wanna do as soon as i have the money (must settle everything by 30)

  • Meet Pakar Sakit Jiwa
  • Pay for Brother’s studies
  • Pay my education loan to Daddy
  • Save money for parents’ Haj
  • Save money for a penthouse in KL and S2000 or X3
  • Save money for Mom’s house
  • Travel to all the historical places and Wonders of the World

 

p/s: will update this from time to time. As a reminder that i have few goals to achieve!

 

    Carefree Bird

    I wanna be that carefree bird again

    I will be

    I must be

    I have to be

     

    Let me clear this last stage of mine, i hope i will be fine.

    There’s nothing to me anymore.

    I will be on my own, like i always be.

     

    I will choose to be happy, no longer sad and thinking of my future.

    That’s all i need now.

    This is how i feel now.

    “Stupid In Love”

    Stupid in love
    Oh
    Stupid in love

    Let me tell you something
    Never have I ever
    Been a size 10
    In my whole life
    I left the engine running
    I just came to see
    What you would do if I
    Gave you a chance
    To make things right

    So I made it
    Even though Katy
    Told me this would be nothing
    But a waste of time
    And she was right

    Dont understand it
    Blood on your hands
    And still you insist
    On repeatedly trying
    To tell me lies
    And I just don’t know why

    This is stupid
    I’m not stupid
    Dont talk to me
    Like Im stupid
    I still love you
    But I just cant do this
    I may be dumb but
    I’m not stupid

    My new nickname
    Is you idiot
    (Such an idiot)
    Thats what my friends
    Are calling me when
    They see me yelling
    Into my
    Phone

    They tell me let go
    He is not the one
    I thought I saw your potential
    Guess thats what made me dumb
    He don’t want it
    Not like you want it
    Scheming and cheating
    Oh girl, why do you
    Waste your time
    You know he aint right

    Telling me this
    I don’t wanna listen
    But you insist
    On repeatedly trying
    To tell me lies
    And I just don’t know why

    This is stupid
    I’m not stupid
    Dont talk to me
    Like I’m stupid
    I still love you
    But I just cant do this
    I may be dumb but
    I’m not stupid

    Trying to make this work
    But you act like a jerk
    Silly of me to keep
    Holding on
    But the dunce cap is off
    You don’t know what you lost
    And you wont realize
    Till I’m gone, gone, gone
    That I was the one
    Which one of us
    Is really dumb

    Ooh
    No
    No
    No
    I’m not stupid in love

    This is stupid
    I’m not stupid
    Dont talk to me
    Like I’m stupid
    I still love you
    But I just cant do this
    I may be dumb but
    I’m not stupid

    I may be dumb but
    I’m not stupid
    In love

    this heart of mine

    this heart of mine, is really fragile

    this heart of mine, will give all out to the things that it wants

    this heart of mine, will get crazy when things turned out ugly

    this heart of mine, currently having its own fight

     

    Should i stay or should i go?

    I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore. I don’t want to be that crazy girl again.

    I’m confused like hell.

    Him is what keeps my sanity intact, keep my head up, keep my heart beat, everyday.

    To know he likes someone else, its hurt.

    i wish he belongs to me

    BUT

    i know it never will. It will always remain as a dream, the nicest one indeed.