Good Day people! Wishing you guys Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim friends and Happy 54th Independence Day (to Malaysian).
Yesterday was the first day of raya. What i did was eat and eat and eat and sleep. Such a nice things to do no? Well, that’s how my raya goes for the past 7 years since my grandparents passed away. Minus 3 years of my fun and excitement raya in Miri, most of my raya celebration will end up watching tv with my nucleus family and continuously eating.
Back to the title.
I just woke up few hours before writing this post. I haven’t really thought about what i want to say. So, please bare with me, ok people 🙂
I read through this list.
I remembered i started to plan what i wanna achieve and what i wanna be at the age of eleven, when i was given a book by my mom, who used to work at my primary school bookshop. I can’t really recall the title of the book, but it’s about how to study well and get 5A’s for UPSR. I recalled the memories when i was the only person in my school to get 5A’s for my mid term exam, yet i was still in Standard 5 that time. The book taught me 1 thing that i still used until today.
‘Write down your goal, clearly, in the place where you can see everyday, so it keeps reminding you whatever things that you do right now will have an impact in achieving your goal’.
I remembered there’s a section in that book, asking me about what’s my goal in UPSR, where i wanna go after that, what’s my 5 years plan and what i want to be in the future. I’m a kind of person who believe in myself when i want to believe in myself. I’m very self-motivated. No one can put me down unless i let that person to do that. So, by doing everything that i know i’m good at, my objective at that time was to get 5A’s and going to MRSM. That was my biggest dream. And yes, indeed, i got my 5A’s but, unexpectedly, with all my good co-curriculum and endorsements by all the teachers who knows me, i was deny my right as a school selected student to pursue my education in a good boarding school because my dad was not the Head of my school Parents Teachers Association (PTA @ PIBG).
I was very down that time, when my mom came back from school and told me about it. I told myself that i already work hard enough, but yet, i didn’t get what i supposed to get. That was my first encounter of the cruel world. How i beg it to be differ because i already have my plans. At that time, i want everything to follow what i planned it to be. Nevertheless, i went to my ordinary secondary school because i was sad of not getting enroll to boarding school, plus the fact that my dad thought i was a baby that time. Why shouldn’t him, my school shoes was cleaned by a washing machine. Both my parents think that i can’t be in boarding school with my laziness attitude. I have to say, today, i think they’ve made a wise decision.
Back to my plain ordinary secondary school. Over here, i was thought that true hard work and passion will get you to anywhere that you want. 65% of the student in that school are Chinese. That’s how i got interested in learning Mandarin. They always has this hard working attitude, regardless anything. With only 15 of us Malay student in my class when i was in Form 5, we were the lazy crew, not all la, but i’m very sure of myself, together with the puppy love season at that time. I was trying hard to get the 10A1 but i only achieved 7A1, 1A2 and 2B3.
I always wanted to do law when i was a kid. I have no idea why. None of my relatives that i’ve known that time has anything to do with lawyer or law firm. I wanted to go to University Malaya to read Law. I still keep that ambition until i was in Form 4, when i was introduced with Sciences subjects, and my favourite of all time, Chemistry. I did extra research on chemistry, what can i do with it, as in working field and everything that related to it.
The rest is history.
My point is planning is a good thing. It makes you see yourself in the future. But, my biggest concern to myself is what will i do if i have no more plan. It got me thinking about my current state of life actually. I’m 23 now. I hope by 28, i will find someone to marry me. But referring to the current situation, i don’t think i will settle down by 28. I’m not worry about settling down, but i’m worry about what i want to do beyond that age. The plan lay inside my head is until i’m 28. What happen after that, i have no clue for myself. It would be lucky if i live to that age.
Currently, 5 years plan is devoted to work life, which i hope will give me enough excitement and fun and i hope to guide me through another 5 years plan of my life.
that’s all from me today. thank you for your time.
Rahilah Abdul Halim