American Life-1

Hey all. It’s been awhile since I blog. I know. Life are ups and downs for me all these while. Family, works, lover. Everything have its highs and lows. I’m working on balancing all of it. It’s neither easy nor hard too, just that I need to find the right recipe for life. Hahaha Currently, i’m in Atlanta, Georgia for 5 weeks. Cobalt training. To tell you the truth, I’m afraid for what’s coming but I have to be positive all the way. I know I can do this. My journey took me 6 hours from Changi, transit in Narita for 3 hours then 12 hours flight across Pacific ocean to Atlanta airport. I can’t remember the name. Like my usual flight from Miri-KL-Miri, I slept during my whole Narita journey and another six hours on my Atlanta journey. I swear sleeping during long flight was the best because it kills the boredome. Hahaha My temporary house in Atlanta is 421, Hilton Garden Inn, John Creeks. Numero uno in the king size bed with flat screen tv is sooooo heaven. The down pic is taken from my window view.


The temperature here is like in Genting, cold and windy. I even closed my aircon to sleep at night. Hope I can go through these conditions for another 33 days. That’s all from me for now. Ciao bella. Speak soon.



I haven’t really greet 2012 with a good greetings. I don’t think I wanna do it anyway.

By the way, it is almost half year of 2012. Time do flies, especially when you work on weekends too. What a life! Hahaha. But then, I rather work than sleeping like a pig at home. Seriously, work is the life as for now.

I’m sad that for the first time in my life, I had to leave someone. Leaving Amate was never part of my plan. I do love him, until this date. Just that with he still in school and I already started working, life is just different between us. I have to think far ahead, beyond only Bf and Gf relationship. After further discussion and so many uncounted crying sessions, I finally let him go. The most hardest decision I’ve ever made, leaving a very good guy for a better one.

Speaking of better one, my new man, Mohamad Azhari Mohamad Hosni. 24 years old. 16 April 1988. Segamat, Johor. My production technician.

That’s all for now
Updating soon.
Ciao bella 🙂

30 Day Song and Picture Challenge

This blog is pretty bored now. Although i have alot of things to talk too but i will skip the ranting to myself now, or to Amate. hahahaha. Well, to make this blog sounds updated, i just gonna combine this 30 Day songs and pics challenge. I did few of the songs but i think i wanna start over. Today will be a good day to start this thing.

day 01 – your favorite song
day 02 – your least favorite song
day 03 – a song that makes you happy
day 04 – a song that makes you sad
day 05 – a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 – a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 – a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 – a song that you know all the words to
day 09 – a song that you can dance to
day 10 – a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 – a song from your favorite band
day 12 – a song from a band you hate
day 13 – a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 – a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 – a song that describes you
day 16 – a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 – a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 – a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 – a song from your favorite album
day 20 – a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 – a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 – a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 – a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 – a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 – a song that makes you laugh
day 26 – a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 – a song that you wish you could play
day 28 – a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 – a song from your childhood
day 30 – your favorite song at this time last year

Day 01: A picture of yourself with 10 facts.
Day 02: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Day 03: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04: A picture of your favourite night.
Day 05: A picture of your favourite memory.
Day 06: A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07: A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08: A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10: A picture of the person you do the most crazy things with.
Day 11: A picture of something you hate.
Day 12: A picture of something you love.
Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14: A picture of something you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16: A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17: A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19: A picture and a letter.
Day 20: A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.
Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23: A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24: A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25: A picture of your favorite day.
Day 26: A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27: A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28: A picture of something you’re afraid of.
Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30: A picture of someone you miss.

Closure of 2011

Pejam celik pejam celik…we already at the end of 2011. Time flies, really.

2011 is a heck of a year for me. Relationship, Studies, Works, Friendship. Every little things in my life has been on the verge, except my Family and the Royal.

It’s like a fairy tale that i’ve been in love again, because i thought i never will. My plan was to have an arrange marriage. Being in love is one thing, being in love with non malaysian guy is one thing, being in love with african guy is a big thing. Hahahaha. So far, the love ride has been ups and downs. But i have to say, Amate is one heck of a guy. He might be less romantic, less understanding and too secretive, but his patience, consideration and tolerance towards me has been superb. I don’t know where this relationship will heads to after this. I wish i know. But, as long as we stay true to each other, this relationship deserves to have a good future no? 🙂

I finally completed my 5 years of tertiary education! Uni time was a good time for me. I diversified in a lot of things, mostly the bad things, which i am not really proud off. However, throughout all that experiences, i finally learnt to know myself more, be more wiser, more appreciative and some other good stuff about me that i never knew i have. My slightest regret during uni was that i didn’t perform all out for my 3 last semesters. That’s the time i got involved with romantic stuffs, that’s the time i know people talked about me behind my back. Call me naive but i never thought people may or will talk bad about me behind my back since i was nice to everyone that i know. Those 3 semesters were the time where i don’t give a fuck about what people may think about me too. I never thought i can be that cold hearted. With all those life problem, coupled with my struggle of completing Design Project and FYP, i graduated with CWA of 69.94. Just 0.06 to get 70. But then again, those were the past that i can’t repeat and i regretted very well.

Works! Very tiring! But very interesting. I have been working for 3 months. I wish i can say more about my works but i can’t. Company Confidential. By this time, i don’t really mind whether i got a chance to go Atlanta or not because there is so many things i have to cover on 2-4-1 process, yet boss has already made his decision to put me on Cobalt process. Thus, Atlanta is still on its way but i just don’t want to put too much hope. Hehehehe. For a very young engineer, works is like a battlefield. You must get your work right if you don’t want people to question your decision or findings or works. I’ve been working on 2 major problems that we encounter on the production line now. I have to say, going on a meeting and sitting next to your boss and run the show where all those big bosses will questions you is kinda scary, at least to me. Work has not give me any trouble yet. Hopefully it remains that way until i got my own car next year. Finger crossed!

I lost 2 friends over things that start off as misunderstanding. I am not gonna say more about this. Just that, i feel sad until now on what happen, i really do. But i don’t think i can make it work anymore, the friendship. So yeah. Thank God i don’t really see them much in office since we’re in different department. I have no intention to be their friends again, for now.

There you have it. My 2011 conclusion. I hope 2012 will bring better things for me. I believe God has plan my path of life and i am eager to know what has He stored for me next year. I hope i am able to go through all the challenges and life my life to the fullest, as long as God want me to.

Adios 2011, Ahlan Wahsahlan 2012. I’ll be waiting 🙂


Its been awhile.

Its been 2 months since my last post. I guess my promise of updating this blog has just remain as promise. Hehehe.

To start of this update, i will just blab about my boring yet interesting life in Gelang Patah. Yes people, i’m the citizen of small town called Gelang Patah, Johor. Current address, Pangsapuri Paya Mengkuang. Pretty nice place to live the life. Hope all is well.

5th of November mark my 2nd month of working life as an engineer. Honestly, i love the job. I do, because it is very interesting. You know alot of new things everyday. Just that i hate the paper work. I just finished validating one of the machine. Took me a week to complete the whole process. Now, the report writing. But,, i have to say, whatever knowledge i gained from uni, it is very helpful here. Just that i need to analyse more, think more, understand more. The not fun part is that you can’t say you don’t know. Work makes you become more responsible towards what you do, especially when your work might interrupt other people’s work.

Life is pretty stable now, i guess. Everything is on the good side.

There’s nothing to talk about because my life here is not as happening as Miri but i kinda like it. Work worn me out. All i want to do when i got back home is just rest and sleep. Its very different than Miri life. Adjusting the happening life to more laid back is abit hard but i will get used to it later.

That’s all from me, now. Will update soon, with more happening things.


p/s: I can’t wait for KK tomorrow!


with love,

Rahilah 🙂

Beyond the Ambition

Good Day people! Wishing you guys Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim friends and Happy 54th Independence Day (to Malaysian).

Yesterday was the first day of raya. What i did was eat and eat and eat and sleep. Such a nice things to do no? Well, that’s how my raya goes for the past 7 years since my grandparents passed away. Minus 3 years of my fun and excitement raya in Miri, most of my raya celebration will end up watching tv with my nucleus family and continuously eating.

Back to the title.

I just woke up few hours before writing this post. I haven’t really thought about what i want to say. So, please bare with me, ok people 🙂

I read through this list.

The 25 Most Powerful Women of the Past Century.

I remembered i started to plan what i wanna achieve and what i wanna be at the age of eleven, when i was given a book by my mom, who used to work at my primary school bookshop. I can’t really recall the title of the book, but it’s about how to study well and get 5A’s for UPSR. I recalled the memories when i was the only person in my school to get 5A’s for my mid term exam, yet i was still in Standard 5 that time. The book taught me 1 thing that i still used until today.

‘Write down your goal, clearly, in the place where you can see everyday, so it keeps reminding you whatever things that you do right now will have an impact in achieving your goal’. 

I remembered there’s a section in that book, asking me about what’s my goal in UPSR, where i wanna go after that, what’s my 5 years plan and what i want to be in the future. I’m a kind of person who believe in myself when i want to believe in myself. I’m very self-motivated. No one can put me down unless i let that person to do that. So, by doing everything that i know i’m good at, my objective at that time was to get 5A’s and going to MRSM. That was my biggest dream. And yes, indeed, i got my 5A’s but, unexpectedly, with all my good co-curriculum and endorsements by all the teachers who knows me, i was deny my right as a school selected student to pursue my education in a good boarding school because my dad was not the Head of my school Parents Teachers Association (PTA @ PIBG).

I was very down that time, when my mom came back from school and told me about it. I told myself that i already work hard enough, but yet, i didn’t get what i supposed to get. That was my first encounter of the cruel world. How i beg it to be differ because i already have my plans. At that time, i want everything to follow what i planned it to be. Nevertheless, i went to my ordinary secondary school because i was sad of not getting enroll to boarding school, plus the fact that my dad thought i was a baby that time. Why shouldn’t him, my school shoes was cleaned by a washing machine. Both my parents think that i can’t be in boarding school with my laziness attitude. I have to say, today, i think they’ve made a wise decision.

Back to my plain ordinary secondary school. Over here, i was thought that true hard work and passion will get you to anywhere that you want. 65% of the student in that school are Chinese. That’s how i got interested in learning Mandarin. They always has this hard working attitude, regardless anything. With only 15 of us Malay student in my class when i was in Form 5, we were the lazy crew, not all la, but i’m very sure of myself, together with the puppy love season at that time. I was trying hard to get the 10A1 but i only achieved 7A1, 1A2 and 2B3.

I always wanted to do law when i was a kid. I have no idea why. None of my relatives that i’ve known that time has anything to do with lawyer or law firm. I wanted to go to University Malaya to read Law. I still keep that ambition until i was in Form 4, when i was introduced with Sciences subjects, and my favourite of all time, Chemistry. I did extra research on chemistry, what can i do with it, as in working field and everything that related to it.

The rest is history.

My point is planning is a good thing. It makes you see yourself in the future. But, my biggest concern to myself is what will i do if i have no more plan. It got me thinking about my current state of life actually. I’m 23 now. I hope by 28, i will find someone to marry me. But referring to the current situation, i don’t think i will settle down by 28. I’m not worry about settling down, but i’m worry about what i want to do beyond that age. The plan lay inside my head is until i’m 28. What happen after that, i have no clue for myself. It would be lucky if i live to that age.

Currently, 5 years plan is devoted to work life, which i hope will give me enough excitement and fun and i hope to guide me through another 5 years plan of my life.


that’s all from me today. thank you for your time.

With Love,

Rahilah Abdul Halim